You do realize that the more you research history and the like the more others will think you're a lunatic.
Ya ya ya ya...
maybe so. it just means one must watch the triggers inside the self that could distort any true meaning gained from it. after all, the study of history is also a study of the self. any kind of investigator is an historian of sorts. how else can one tell a story to a jury? just make sure it's a good one.